5/26/12 - ugh
- Is it just me or do (pretty much all) teenage girls secretly hope for that Prince Charming that will waltz into their life and sweep them off their feet for a summertime fling? …..yah I do that. Never happens.
- My insecurities have been eating me alive recently. I’m fine when I’m by myself but I hate it when people bring up characteristics I’m actually sensitive about.
- And can people just stop the pretending? If you say you’re gonna do something, fucking keep your word. Is that honestly too much to ask? It’s not fair to get someone’s hopes up by telling a half-truth and then completely let them down because you didn’t want to look like the bad guy. Oh, and don’t even get me started about someone else telling them the truth later on… It fucking hurts, you know? Shove your ego up where the sun don’t shine because no matter what you do, someone’s going to get hurt and at the end of the day, you’re just going to look like an even bigger dick than you already are.
- I got carried away with that previous one……
I can’t remember the last time I made a legitimate personal post
It’s like I’d rather just keep everything to myself because I have this irrational fear of people reading my innermost thoughts and then using it against me later on, idk.
Lemme just get something straight
I honestly don’t think some people understand the extent to which I am awkward. It’s not even a cute awkward, unless I break the ice and actually make fun of my own awkwardness or if you know me well enough already. To add to my awkwardness, my mind is like a circus. I’m usually thinking about a billion things at once, making it a common occurrence that I’m both happy and sad at the same time and my mind is often times somewhere else. My guard is also always up. Not because I “hate humans because everyone I’ve met has hurt me and I have trust issues” (I’m addressing those stupid iPhone text screenshots I always see…), but because I get anxious sometimes and a panic attack is a very likely possibility. So if you think I don’t like you or you think I want to shoot myself for various reasons just by looking at my face, 9 times out of 10 you’re wrong. Give me a chance before you assume that I meant to hurt your feelings. I didn’t.
Day 02 - Where you’d like to be in 10 years.
I would like to have a steady job that lets me be creative. I want to be in somewhat of a serious relationship, maybe even married at that point. I don’t know; I just hope that whatever my life is like, I’m happy. That’s all I really care about.
seriously?
so i get shit about being bad with replying to my friends’ texts and just generally not acting like i care that much (which is just a bad habit, i obviously do care) and so i finally make an effort with this one friend… and ugh. it’s so pointless. he’ll start conversations and then never respond to my replies. or i’ll text him a few times and get no reply and then like three days later he’ll apologize for it. do you honestly wonder why i suck at replying to texts and constantly talking to people? talking to a wall isn’t that interesting.
Day 01 - Your current relationship, if single discuss how single life is.
I’m single. I don’t really actively think about relationships and being single or whatever. I think most people come to a realization at a certain point that having a girlfriend/boyfriend isn’t the most important thing in the world, especially as a teenager. Only the lucky ones last, but most of them don’t. And being around friends who are constantly in and out of relationships doesn’t exactly help with my view on things.
30 Day Challenge
Day 01 - Your current relationship, if single discuss how single life is.
Day 02 - Where you’d like to be in 10 years.
Day 03 - Your views on drugs and alcohol.
Day 04 - Your views on religion.
Day 05 - A time you thought about ending your own life.
Day 06 - Write 30 interesting facts about yourself.
Day 07 - Your zodiac sign and if you think it fits your personality.
Day 08 - A moment you felt the most satisfied with your life.
Day 09 - How you hope your future will be like.
Day 10 - Discuss your first love and first kiss.
Day 11 - Put your ipod on shuffle and write 10 songs that pop up.
Day 12 - Bullet your whole day.
Day 13 - Somewhere you’d like to move or visit.
Day 14 - Your earliest memory.
Day 15 - Your favourite tumblrs.
Day 16 - Your views on mainstream music.
Day 17 - Your highs and lows of this past year.
Day 18 - Your beliefs.
Day 19 - Disrespecting your parents.
Day 20 - How important you think education is.
Day 21 - One of your favorite shows.
Day 22 - How have you changed in the past 2 years?
Day 23 - Give pictures of 5 guys who are famous who you find attractive.
Day 24 - Your favorite movie and what it’s about.
Day 25 - Someone who fascinates you and why.
Day 26 - What kind of person attracts you.
Day 27 - A problem that you have had.
Day 28 - Something that you miss.
Day 29 - Goals for the next 30 days.
Day 30 - Your highs and lows of this month.
doing this nao
